Talents

I’ve been thinking about talents for the past few days and all of the many talents each of us has been given.  This has been mostly brought on by a compliment I received after playing in Church on Sunday.  I’m a pianist, as well as a singer, and played this song in between Sacrament talks, and it is one of my favorites to play.  Although, as I listen to it again, I will say that I have a terrible problem with tempo as I believe the middle and final sections should be played much faster than they are written, and with different dynamics, and….wow, I’m rambling.  NOT the purpose of this talk.

Anyway, I’ve been trying to be more gracious when I receive compliments about my various talents and abilities.  I sing, play piano, dance (sort of and with guidance), act, create costumes, and write.  These are all various creative outlets that I have found I excel in, or at the very least I enjoy.  Someone at Church pointed out these talents to me at Sunday, and it was followed by “I’m amazed how so much talent can be put into one person, and miss so many other people.” I’m paraphrasing but that’s the gist of it.  My return phrase was said with great adherence to prompting.  “That just means that you have other talents that bless the lives of others.”  Again, I’m paraphrasing but that’s the gist of it.

This brief conversation has had me thinking, that while there are many talents I have (and that’s not me being prideful.  Everyone has talents and acknowledging them is to better understand yourself.), there are many that I just don’t have and most of these come from a Church related mindset.

  1. I do not have a talent for understanding scripture.
    • Now, hold the phone.  I’m not saying that I cannot understand the Beattitudes, or the Parables, or many of Christ’s teachings.  But if I’m reading a story or some sort of historical  event in the scriptures, I cannot find the deep hidden meaning that if you read this scripture and revert back to a twenty lines before it and cross reference to this in an entirely different book you’ll find that it means X, Y, Z.  I cannot find the hidden meaning.  I’m a top level learner, and honestly, that works for me.  It’s the simple truth that I think many people have a tendency to overlook in favor of that meaning that you have to sweat over in order to find.
  2. I do not have a talent for impromptu speaking.
    • Just don’t ask me.  Seriously.  Don’t ask me to just give my testimony, or to give my opinion, without giving me the all important T-I-M-E.  It will seriously end with embarrassment for me, because what are words?,  and you, since the desired result is not what you originally wanted.  Need me to speak?  Give thoughts?  Just basically say anything?  Yeah, I’ll need time and the length of that depends on exactly how long you want me to speak.

While there are many more talents that I do not have possess, these two I find cause me the greatest issue since they happen alot, especially during Fast and Testimony meeting, and when I’m in Church related classes, like Sunday School, Institute, or Relief Society meeting.  Do I get dismayed and really downhearted because these two things are serious personal issues for me?  You bet I do!!

But you know what?  That’s okay!  It’s totally okay that things things are things I cannot do well.  (Yes, I put the word “things” three time in a sentence.  Grammar Nazi in me is SO IRRITATED!).  But there are others, so many others, who have these talents and I can choose to be uplifted and find great guidance in their words and thoughts.  I have my talents to share and they have theirs.  Together, we create a beautiful word where we can share the Gospel and teach all kinds of people!

– Dee

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When Heavenly Father Speaks

Good evening, my wonderful Roses!!

I’ve been thinking a lot these past few weeks about prayer and the many different ways that Heavenly Father answers our requests for his guidance and blessings.  I know I’m not alone in the thought that we all feel there are times in our lives where we feel like God just isn’t listening, or the gates, doors, and windows to Heaven are shut.  I hate that feeling.  It’s like you’re stranded on a deserted island and no one is going to save you.  All of your problems, stress, and worries just weigh down on your shoulders and it’s like an impossible burden that you have to carry because no one will help.

So, what do we do in that situation?  It can be hard going to family, friends, or church leaders to discuss this because we feel as though we’re alone in this.  If Heavenly Father, someone who is supposed to always love and guide us, isn’t there, then how can we trust the people here on earth that we trust?

The truth is, we shouldn’t be looking to others for help.  At least, not at first.

Often times, it’s impossible for their to be open communication between us and Heavenly Father because something is blocking our path.  Usually, that comes in the form of sin, or a transgressions, that has occurred on our part.  We’ve not repented of it, and so it just sits there becoming a huge road block.  So, take care of the road block first.  Confess that sin, no matter how small or how large it is.  Truly repent and resolve to do all within your power to forever turn away from that transgression.  Also, apologize and ask forgiveness for those you may have injured in word or in deed.

Oh, wait.  You’ve done all that?  Well, then I guess we can move to the next part!  And that’s how Heavenly Father actually communicates with us, and answers our prayers.  For this part, I’ll be pulling from a talk by Elder Richard G. Scott of the Quorum of the Twelve Apostles.  I also strongly recommend you go listen to this talk which can be found here.  It’s a truly wonderful talk and gives really good points on prayer.

Heavenly Father answers prayer in many ways, and at times we can get accustomed to one particular way, like a fire in the heart, or emptiness, or actually hearing a voice (which if that’s happened to you, good on you!).  I, personally, believe that how He speaks to his children varies and depends on what each of us need.

Sometimes, God answers a prayer with a resounding “yes.”  It makes me so happy when I know that something I’ve asked for has come to pass.  I also feel really confident in what I’m doing as well.  Like, Heavenly Father has given me the green light, so to speak, and I’m able to make the right choices accordingly.

Sometimes, God answers a prayer with a heartbreaking “no.”  Those can be the hardest for us to deal with, because we’re human and sometimes subject to feelings of entitlement and so forth.  I’m personally struggling with a prayer that was answered with a “no,” at least, I think it was “no.”  Like I said, my impressions from God are so confusing and always have been.  It’s not like I know that He answers my prayers, because He does.  I’m just confused if what I’m feeling is my own doubts, struggles, worries, and human nature, or if it really is the final answer.  We’ll see in a few years.  🙂

The thing about having a prayer answered with “no” is that it’s not because God doesn’t love us.  It’s to prevent error.  You’re not supposed to do this thing, or have that, because God knows all things and sees what would happen if such a thing were to come to pass.  So, it comes down to faith, and trust on our part. Scary thing, isn’t it?

Another way that Heavenly Father answers prayer is by withholding an answer, and that right there is, personally, the scariest thing EVER!!  That’s one of those moments where I’m like “WHAT DID I DO?”  I’m so confused, because I feel like it’s something that I’ve done that has caused another road block in communication.  But the Elder Scott’s talk goes on to say that it’s during those times where we must exercise faith and trust in God.  Make a decision, based on a willingness to act on truth, and an obedience to His commandments, and, if you’ve made the wrong choices, He’ll let you know.

The talk also mentions those times where we come to Heavenly Father where we’re conflicted between two things and we need guidance from Heavenly Father on which one we should pick or do.  This sort of scenario was a huge burden on my heart for almost two months until this talk was brought up during an Institute class.  Both of these things were not bad, in fact it was basically a choice between two very wholesome activities for an upcoming Saturday.  However, doing one over the other would have a lasting effect in the upcoming months.  I asked, for guidance, and received no answer.  That’s because not ever question has a wrong or right answer.  Elder Dallin H. Oaks said that “we have prayed about a decision, for one cause or another, we should make without guidance by revelation…No answer is likely to come to a person who seeks guidance in choosing between two alternatives that are equally acceptable to the Lord.”

It was like BOOM!  I had my answer.  I wasn’t going to receive guidance or an answer, and that was okay.  So, I did what I usually do when I have to make a choice.  I go to my pros and cons chart.  Make a list of all the good and not so good things about each thing and go from there.  I also had to act the faith that if I was doing something Heavenly Father didn’t want me to do, He would let me know.

Like I’ve said, Elder Richard G. Scott’s talk goes on to explain so much more about prayer and communication from Heavenly Father, but I’ve been really focused on these three points for a while now.  I hope that this has been a help to you, reader.  If it hasn’t, then feel free to ask questions and I’ll do my best to answer you.  If it has, I hope that you’ll feel more confident when approaching Heavenly Father in prayer and understand that He does love you, more than any of us can comprehend.

Much love,

Deanna

Morning Musings

Alright.

So.

I had a bit of a realization this morning and felt it only appropriate to put it here.  It’s too long for the Book of Faces and I fear would get lost in the jumble of posts that happen on social media.  Not that this is something that I expect people to read, but it’s nice to be able to put down my thoughts without worrying how many “likes” or comments I’ll get.  Anyway, here we go.

Good morning!  My name is Deanna and I have trust issues.

There!  I said it!  You’d think it wouldn’t be that hard or would’ve taken me so long to realize it (and it has…we’re talking years here) but admitting the worst about ourselves is the first step to recovery.  Well, that’s what I’m told anyway.  Some flaws or defects about ourselves are things we’ll always have to deal with.  This is one of my “weaknesses” and it’s good to acknowledge it.

I wasn’t always this way.  In fact, I used to be a very easy going and friendly person.  Trusting people was so easy because I never had any doubt that people would turn out to be insensitive jerks who took everything for themselves leaving me behind to pick up broken pieces.  But that’s a rant for another day.

In the end, it’s forced me to see this.  Having trust issues is now the reason I keep everyone at an arm’s length.  This is not limited to strangers or acquaintances.  This includes family and close friends.   Libras, such as myself, are pictured as scales.  I can see the truth in this as I like to have a balanced life.  I don’t wish to bring unbalance to my life or to anyone’s life by bringing my own baggage to the scales, tipping them one way or another.

This doesn’t on any account make me an unloving or cruel person!!  I’ll carry on conversation (though don’t expect me to initiate…I’m an introvert), go out and do things, be positive and uplifting to people who are having bad days.  Just don’t expect me to come to you with my life story, my pain, my disappointment, my dreams, my hopes, or my love.  My heart is very well guarded, but there are times I will admit when several holes are made by outside forces and I run and hide as quickly as I possibly can.  I rebuild the walls, and wake up ready to start over again.

Is this exhausting?  In the beginning, most definitely.  But it takes thirty days to make a habit.  And it’s been well over thirty days.

But how can I ever expect to be married if you don’t trust people?

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Really?  Marriage is not the only goal in this life!  And maybe I’m saying this as a hardened bitter divorced lady, but who in their right mind would open themselves up to that sort of pain all over again?!  I gave my trust and my unconditional love to someone who was supposed to trust and unconditionally love me F-O-R-E-V-E-R!!!  And look where it got me?  I’m not saying that there aren’t many blessings in my life since that December of 2014.  In fact, I’m probably happier now than I was during my entire relationship with him.  But love is like a bank account and eventually so many withdrawals are made (with no deposits entered) that the overdraft fees just stack up and there’s nooooooo way you’ll ever see a balanced account.  Unrequited affection, tear-filled nights, and just downright loneliness….I mean who could go through that again?!

Of course, I say this now but who knows what the Lord has planned for me in the upcoming years.  I might end up being single for the rest of my earthly days.  And believe me, roomie and I have a plan for that.  If both of us never get married, I’m buying a house and we’re going to be Spinster Sisters and I’ll finally have the dog I’ve always wanted, and we’ll decorate the house with a bunch of nerd/geek merch and we’ll have the life we want.

But who knows?  Maybe I will have that fairy tale Disney romantic ending, where the guy scales the walls I’ve built around my heart, sweeps me off my feet and carries me off into the sunset.  Where he’ll actually court me (and there are standards for that) and get to know my family.  He’ll see all the facets of me and learn all of my interests and the desires of my heart and not only will he accept them, but he’ll want to be a part of the things that I love.  Well, maybe not everything.  There are benefits in being a part and being independent of each other.  Just not too independent.

But let’s face it.  Life isn’t a fairy tale.  And someone who is actually going to take the time to see me requires patience.  And we live in a too fast paced world where instant gratification is the key to everything.  Like, if you make a huge purchase you’re supposed to save up the money for it…not use the credit card to get it now.  The same can be said in a relationship.  If you want the end goal (ring, house, family, etc.) it takes time.  It takes patience.  It takes trust.

Not including family, there are probably only 3 people that I could say I trust unconditionally.  That’s it.  Three.  Three wonderful friends who I know that I could call at any time and they’d be there for me.  They’d listen and listen and listen until I’d said all that I need to say.  But I’m also that type of introverted shy person who doesn’t like to burden people with my problems.  Those three ladies are people who I know if they ask “how are you?” they really mean that question.  Roomie is one of those friends, and she can tell from the instant I walk in the apartment that something is wrong.

So, how does all of this end?

It’s simple really.  My name is Deanna and I have trust issues.  That’s part of who I am.  It’s part of what makes me…well, me.  Someday I’ll meet someone who really forces me to put faith and trust in people again.  But it’s not this day.  At least not at 10 a.m. on a Sunday morning.

OC-tober 10/1

Universe: Dragon Age II (video game by BioWare)

POV: Sebastian Vael

OC: Kaitlynn Hawke – rogue (yes, she’s technically not an OC since she’s the one you play, but I create my own story around her so it counts…yes?)

“He’d come to love her not because of the way she’d taken charge of her circumstances or of how her status had changed from refugee to nobility. But because of the unconditional love she gave to all. No one was beneath her notice. All people regardless of color or race were treated with the same civility, kindness, love, and respect that would be been given to the noblest of kings.

“But it was who she spent her time with that concerned him, not that he had any real claim to worry about her.  They were only friends, despite the desires of his heart.  Hawke looked wearied and stressed and he knew that it wasn’t because she was now Champion of Kirkwall and was trying to maintain the peace between the Mages and the Templars.  Her relationship with Anders was causing her an enormous amount of stress.  He wanted to talk to her about it…Maker, he wanted to talk to her regardless of the subject.  They’d been close once.  He had been her comfort with the passing of Bethany and Leandra.  She’d sought him instead of Anders, but he could never give her what she wanted.

“Well, at the time he couldn’t.  But now, he was determined to reclaim his throne and someone as pure and loving as Kaitlynn would be perfect at his side.  But how could he ask for her?  Why should he?  She was so devoted to Anders, despite the inevitable destruction it would cause her.  No.  He would wait.  He would continue to be the friend she needed, and if…no, when that day came, he would be there.  He would help Kaitlynn pick up the broken pieces and maybe…just maybe…”

OC-tober

Alright, so I saw this thing (points to title) and thought that it would be a great way to help keep me writing.  My Dailies aren’t where they’re supposed to be but life.  So, starting today and for the rest of the month I’m going to give you a look into the voices that live inside my head, specifically my OC’s (original characters).  I think it would be fun and hopefully it’s a nice creative outlet for me.  I don’t expect there to be full chapters but hopefully a paragraph or two set in either the POV of the OC or a character already found in that universe.  Trust me, this’ll make sense in the next post.

– Deanna

Fitness Friday 9/23/2016

Week 5 – Day 1

So, I gotta say, that this is a pretty awesome day!  I was so excited at weigh-in and thrilled with the results I’ve been seeing this past week.  That’s right!  Weigh-in was a success and I’m officially in a new set of numbers!  We’ve crossed into the 160s which means that I have less than 20 pounds to go!!  I don’t think I can express how very excited I am and all the more recommitted to keep going!

What have I been noticing this week?  Well, the pants are all fitting a bit looser, and I had to go to a new notch on a belt and on a watch!  Also, the 30-day plank challenge is torture but the results are worth it!  I see some definition but that’s not one of my goals so don’t expect me to go on about that.  They say it’s the first 10 pounds where you notice changes, but it’s at the 20 pound mark where other people notice change.  Honestly, it’s happened already.  Some people are noticing and it only makes me happy.

Now, to clarify. I’m not doing this for anyone but myself.  I want to find a healthier me since there are certain health risks that run in my family.  Like diabetes for example.  I think my body must be dealing with some sort of shock from the lack of sugar that’s in my system.  Anyway, I’m not doing this to please anyone or to make myself more appealing to anyone.  This.  Is.  For.  Me.  And me only!

Goals for the week:

1.) Drink more water!!  I can’t stress this enough!  I still don’t feel like I’m getting all of the required amounts of water, but I can tell the days where I do and do not drink all my water.

2.) Take back Saturday!  This past Saturday was really good and I started out strong, but by two o’clock, I was done.  I wanted nothing more than to play Inquisition and have some time with Cullen.  Or Blackwall.  Whichever OC was awake at the moment.

3.) Make daily scripture study purposeful.  What am I looking for when I do my study?  Is it just another thing on the checklist or am I reading to discover and to learn?

4.) Stay active!   I’ll be in Toddlers this week so goodness knows I’ll be on my toes the entire time I’m with them, but always stay moving.  Sit only at nap time, and only when I’m not checking to make sure kids are breathing!

So, that’s it!!  Don’t forget to check out Kristen’s blog to see how she did this week!

– Deanna

Fitness Fridays – 9/9/2016

Week Three – Day One

Alright!  So, for the positive!  I’m down a solid pound this week which is pretty neat considering I had a three day weekend with my parents which involved nothing more than reading two books and enjoying the quiet nature of their farm.  But, honestly, we shouldn’t judge or successes by the number on the scale because we’re worth more than that.  I pulled out a blouse I hadn’t worn for quite a while and was amazed at how it looked on me! Now, that could be due in part to confidence but you know!

I had my Friday night dinner which involved a salad from a sandwich shop and my usual ice cream treat.  But, tomorrow will be a day to watch because it’ll be a minimally active day but the rest of my week should be good.  No sudden surprises in food expenses.

I’m on my 30 day plank challenge and I’m on day 4 which is to hold a plank for 40 seconds.  Doesn’t sound like much but it is!!  I’m also starting up a new “workout” I guess you could call it to help keep me active but no spoilers yet!  I’ve also bought all the materials to make my very own voi (more on that soon) which will also help keep me active when I finally get around to using it.

New recipe for the week:  White rice, with chicken and pico de gallo.

What to keep doing for the week?  One zero point food per meal.  That’s becoming a banana with breakfast, grapes with lunch, and some sort of vegetable with dinner.  I also have an apple during the day to tide me over til lunch.  I’m slowly starting to see my water intake.  I’m not as hungry if I have lots of water per meal and I can tell a difference in my sluggishness without the water.

Negatives of the week – vertigo.

I mean, I think I can call it that even though I haven’t been officially diagnosed with it.  It’s like, I turn my head and then eventually everything catches up to it.  Really dizzy and I look like a drunk person while walking ( though I’ve never been drunk before so the comparison might not be accurate).  I don’t know how this could be a negative but I worry that it’s partly blood sugar related, so I’ll be finding a doctor soon to hopefully help with that.

Anyway, that’s all for tonight!  We’ll see you all again in a week!!

– Deanna

Fitness Fridays 9/2/2016

Week 2 Day 1

Alright, so I’m pretty sure that his week has been a complete bust and I have only myself to blame for that.  I allowed myself more than one “cheat” day and got into the complacency that usually happens when I see changes on the scale.  So, the resolutions for this week are going to be a lot more strict, especially since I will not be at my house for the duration of the upcoming three day weekend.  I’ll be with my parents from Friday evening to Monday afternoon…a much needed break.

Of course, this is also the perfect opportunity for me to stay on track because I tend to not eat as much when I’m at other people’s house.  Yes, yes, weird I know.

So, what do I intend to do for the three day weekend?  Well, I will be away from technology so I don’t have to worry about my two hour limit.  I intend to work on crafts, walk around my parents’ expanse of property (it’s mostly wooded and I like nature *happy dance*), read, plan my Sunday School lesson, and try to stay on track without having to worry about every little thing that goes into my mouth.

Also, Tuesday will start a 28-day ab challenge.  I need to increase my physical activity and this is the perfect way to start that.  Plus, I L-O-V-E planks!  Eventually I want to upgrade my phone to one that has more storage space so I can start working on walking/running more outside when the possibility to drink the air (#humidity) is not so readily available.

We’re also preparing for General Conference (we’re about a month out), so I’ll take the opportunity to start coming up with questions, or things to ponder during the two day event.  Other upcoming things?  I’ll be taking a vacation after my birthday on the 6th of October.  I’ll be gone that following Saturday through Wednesday afternoon.  Thursday I’m having root canal ( no chance to eat that day YAY! ) and am taking Friday in case something happens because with me…you never know.  Plus, I’m afraid of the tooth doctor, but have realized that to be more my own fault than anything else.

My goal is to be down 10 pounds by the time Roomie and I leave for Con the first weekend in December.  That first weekend is also another wonderful time to lose weight because I’m on the go soooooo much there’s no time to eat!!  I think I dropped 5 pounds last year.  I know, not the right way to lose weight but it was nice seeing those numbers on the scale…even if it was just for a few days.

Today, lunch is being catered at work so I’m going to eat as much fresh fruit and veggies as I can get my hands on and start working on getting my 8 8oz glasses of water a day.  The cup I usually carry around carries 16oz so I want to work on drinking at least 16oz per meal and then another 16 before bed.  We’ll see what happens.

Goals for the Week

  1. start drinking more water.  16oz per meal
  2. Chores and responsibilities before media time
  3. Be more mindful, especially during my upcoming vacation
  4. Keep busy, no mindless eating.

 

Successes from Last Week

  1. Eating more fruits and veggies – I think I did have some sort of 0 point food per meal and I’m starting to eat peppers instead of chips when I make sandwiches.
  2. Took advantage of my tens to eat a small snack that would help carry me to my next meal
  3. Did NOT eat the cake that was in the break room.  *i deserve a medal for that one*
  4. Read scriptures daily
  5. Walked to go get ice cream instead of driving

 

See you all next week!!

– Deanna

P.S.  Don’t forget to check out how Kristen has been doing this week!!

New Calling – Dee’s Dailies 9/1/2016

Alright, so it finally happened!  I’ve been given a calling at my YSA Branch.  I’ve been asked to be a Sunday School teacher and I have a strong feeling I’ll be spending most of my time in the Gospel Principles class.

There.

Now.

We can enter total freak out mode!

I have NO idea what I’m doing, so I’m just going to throw that out there right now!  I have been a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints for almost 7 years ( little over a month til my baptism anniversary!! ) and about 6 1/2 years of that has been spent in Primary.  That’s children.  Ages 3-12.  I’ve been the Pianist, a Teacher, and the Music Leader, thankfully not all at the same time.  I’m also not the most social person when it comes to new people that are around my age.  Seriously, I’ve literally freaked people out when they actually see me in my “natural habitat.”  (i.e. with my best friends or my family)

Anyway, story for another time.

It’s been really pressed upon me during the week to read Exodus 3 and 4.  You know, the part where Moses talks to God and it’s basically a “how in the world could you ask me to be the deliverer?” kind of conversation.  Because quite frankly, I can have a bit of an understanding of how Moses feels.  Let me break it down a bit.

Exodus 3:11 – “And Moses said unto God, Who am I, that I should go unto Pharaoh, and that I should bring forth the children of Israel out of Egypt?”

Exodus 4:1 – “And Moses answered and said, But, behold, they will not believe me, nor hearken unto my voice: for they will say, The Lord hath not appeared unto thee.

Exodus 4:10 – “And Moses said unto the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore, nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech, and of a slowtongue.

Like, those statements are very much some of what I have been feeling.  I mean, I know the lessons I’ll teach aren’t about me, but I fear that my own personal insecurities and self-doubt will be a hindrance to the Spirit’s teachings.  I mean, literally,  Who am I?  I am not fluent in the scriptures and no references like so many can.  Days where I’m in classes like that are the worst for me, by the way.  There are so many other people who are, in my opinion, far better suited to be in a class like this, but at the YSA Branch, there is no Primary.  But, callings are not about where you should be. Heavenly Father I know has a plan for me and I’m supposed to teach for a reason.  Maybe I’ll figure it out before long.

Don’t get me wrong, part of me is SUPER excited to be teaching, and to be learning and to become more knowledgeable in my scriptures, and I do think that this is the perfect way for me to do just that.  I mean, if I’m in Gospel Principles, that means I’m in a class filled with investigators and new converts, which can be some of the most amazing people in the Church.  Period.

But I am very nervous.  I’m eloquent when I have the words in front of me, but to think at the drop of the hat…to dive deep into scriptures and find some hidden meaning…it’s just not how my head works.  I’m a surface learner, and maybe that can be seen as more of a weakness than a strength. But, I think, for now, I’m going to see it as a strength.  It’s served me well in Primary, and I guess it’s just not time for me to do anything about it.

Heavenly Father’s plans for us are truly something wonderful and we learn one step at a time.  Everything is built on top of what we already know.  I’ll start teaching on September 11 so let’s see how this all goes!

Much love,

Deanna

Dee’s Dailies 8/29

I had a dream last night.  I saw something in that dream that I didn’t remember until about a half an hour after I’d woken up and was browsing through Facebook.  I saw 1 Corinthians 3:16.  Not that actual verse or anything in my dream, just the reference.  It wasn’t until browsing through Facebook and I saw the scripture posted on a friend’s timeline that I remembered I’d seen the reference.  The verse reads:

Know ye not that ye are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwelleth in you?

Now, I’ve been praying for guidance recently.  I’ve been double checking and sometimes triple and quadruple checking with Heavenly Father to make sure that I’m doing everything I’m supposed to be doing and being where I’m supposed to be.  I’m trying to make Institute and FHE (Family Home Evening) more of a priority in my life and to stop being a social recluse.

Seeing this scripture all of a sudden just gives me pause and cause to reevaluate my life, as we should do on a frequent basis.  I’m using this, hopefully in the correct way, as a sign to put more importance on my own personal journey as well as my social one as well.  To refocus my lens, as it were, on the endgame…on the eternal perspective.  So, I’m using this as a chance to recommit to my goals and new daily habits.  Let’s see what happens…shall we?

– Deanna